Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
What I Believe
(this theme allows my thoughts to flow better than "Dream")
I believe:
- No one ....difficult to think on this subject too..
If i were to present my journey to an audience, what would be my message?
When i was a sophomore in highschool i reached a point where i couldn't think..it was a real struggle to concentrate and get work done. I was isolating myself - i placed getting homework done above everything else. I think back and remember one week where i had maybe a couple panic attacks - i needed to stop running to sit on the side of the road. I enjoyed my classes and my teachers, but getting work done was a huge struggle. Why? Maybe i set too high goals...i think it;s really because the work i was doing wasn't for anything - just an excercise to prepare me for the 'real world'. This lack of purpose and the need to escape work caused me to go to the dominican republic for a 9 day service trip. There i met good friends and experienced what community was...the love there....everyone checking up on each other..everyone helping...i started to feeling like somethingwas present controlling the flow of life in the dominican. Something that caused old friends to cross each other at the same time..or caused random events to occur that brought or someone from one place to a life altering other place. I started to sense this love and interconnectedness in the dominican.
What i take from all of my excursions is the bond that i've formed with myself and the group. Costa Rica, i was part of a family with 26 other students of varying ages from around the US (and Canada).
Not really knowing what attracted me to the dominican - i knew i just needed to get back - to keep traveling. so i built something that i thought might be useful there. The only purpose it ended up serving was giving me a lot of success in science fair, a great elevator pitch topic, a grant to CR, annnnd confidence i could build more things and get similar success.
So i moved onto engineering. I made some great friends at WPI, and i started a project where my team worked on creating an implementaion plan for a device in a developing area (check). Yet, though again my project gave me great success and attention and reason to give presentations (all things i enjoy very much), i kept on getting stuck in classes - i had no motivating factor to read my textbooks....people keep on telling me a college degree will give you credit if someone you want to start your own business or want to work for someone - you will always have that to fall back on. However, at the heart of it - i don't care what grades i get on tests or projects - it's what i learned or was able to create..those are the things i create values from. So again, i don't give a shit what some company thinks of me - they can suck my dick for all i care.. what should matter to them, as it matters to me, is what I've been able to accomplish...by accomplish i mean what I've been able to create and make an impact with.
At any rate i dropped out of school. The last semeseter before i left was especially hard because i couldn't read or start work. WHen i was able to dig into homework, i did find myself interested in what i was reading. Engineering theory is pretty interesting at the heart of it. But i couldn't focus so i dropped out.
I was interested in farming and vegetable gardening. I pursued an apprenticeship on an island - helping them to create their first farmer's market. It was hear again i experience the love at the heart of a community, and the magic the can happen when time is out of the equation....when they're is no equation. When life just runs on life.
Before that i was in kenya for 10 days - caring out frosh project. I was really successful at raising money. Again there, i felt the family, but wasn't they're long enough to truly live as apart of the whole.
I'm home now. was recently put on ADD meds that are changing my life - I wouldn't have been able to write this long without them. I feel like i exist in the world and haven't been afraid to be more pressing toward acheiving what i want...whether it be to be served faster, or to let the kid i'm tutoring know how much he's pissing me off... :)
So what - what do i want to impart onto the reader. What change do i want to create? I want to create sustainable solutions for our earth and future human generations. A sustainable relation that causes them to live together in peace. For the world to be one big community...or united small community's that respect each other...and maybe have potluck's across town once a month.
In order to create one hella sustainable solution - we need to educate everyone. Because education creates behavior. Not only do we need to educate everyone, we need to provide them with the resources to act on/out their education ....i.e. I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ELECTRICAL ENGINEER'S TURN INTO SUBSISTENT FARMERS ...it is only through those means that an infrastructure can start to be built in impoverished communities. And with a growing infrastructure, means growing job market. We need to keep money within the community. We need to keep the smart people within the community. We need to teach children's ethics to avoid corruption. We need schools that create leaders. We need to give power to women.
How do you even start to create change in farming homes?...with no time, no money, and no energy.
I believe:
- No one ....difficult to think on this subject too..
If i were to present my journey to an audience, what would be my message?
When i was a sophomore in highschool i reached a point where i couldn't think..it was a real struggle to concentrate and get work done. I was isolating myself - i placed getting homework done above everything else. I think back and remember one week where i had maybe a couple panic attacks - i needed to stop running to sit on the side of the road. I enjoyed my classes and my teachers, but getting work done was a huge struggle. Why? Maybe i set too high goals...i think it;s really because the work i was doing wasn't for anything - just an excercise to prepare me for the 'real world'. This lack of purpose and the need to escape work caused me to go to the dominican republic for a 9 day service trip. There i met good friends and experienced what community was...the love there....everyone checking up on each other..everyone helping...i started to feeling like somethingwas present controlling the flow of life in the dominican. Something that caused old friends to cross each other at the same time..or caused random events to occur that brought or someone from one place to a life altering other place. I started to sense this love and interconnectedness in the dominican.
What i take from all of my excursions is the bond that i've formed with myself and the group. Costa Rica, i was part of a family with 26 other students of varying ages from around the US (and Canada).
Not really knowing what attracted me to the dominican - i knew i just needed to get back - to keep traveling. so i built something that i thought might be useful there. The only purpose it ended up serving was giving me a lot of success in science fair, a great elevator pitch topic, a grant to CR, annnnd confidence i could build more things and get similar success.
So i moved onto engineering. I made some great friends at WPI, and i started a project where my team worked on creating an implementaion plan for a device in a developing area (check). Yet, though again my project gave me great success and attention and reason to give presentations (all things i enjoy very much), i kept on getting stuck in classes - i had no motivating factor to read my textbooks....people keep on telling me a college degree will give you credit if someone you want to start your own business or want to work for someone - you will always have that to fall back on. However, at the heart of it - i don't care what grades i get on tests or projects - it's what i learned or was able to create..those are the things i create values from. So again, i don't give a shit what some company thinks of me - they can suck my dick for all i care.. what should matter to them, as it matters to me, is what I've been able to accomplish...by accomplish i mean what I've been able to create and make an impact with.
At any rate i dropped out of school. The last semeseter before i left was especially hard because i couldn't read or start work. WHen i was able to dig into homework, i did find myself interested in what i was reading. Engineering theory is pretty interesting at the heart of it. But i couldn't focus so i dropped out.
I was interested in farming and vegetable gardening. I pursued an apprenticeship on an island - helping them to create their first farmer's market. It was hear again i experience the love at the heart of a community, and the magic the can happen when time is out of the equation....when they're is no equation. When life just runs on life.
Before that i was in kenya for 10 days - caring out frosh project. I was really successful at raising money. Again there, i felt the family, but wasn't they're long enough to truly live as apart of the whole.
I'm home now. was recently put on ADD meds that are changing my life - I wouldn't have been able to write this long without them. I feel like i exist in the world and haven't been afraid to be more pressing toward acheiving what i want...whether it be to be served faster, or to let the kid i'm tutoring know how much he's pissing me off... :)
So what - what do i want to impart onto the reader. What change do i want to create? I want to create sustainable solutions for our earth and future human generations. A sustainable relation that causes them to live together in peace. For the world to be one big community...or united small community's that respect each other...and maybe have potluck's across town once a month.
In order to create one hella sustainable solution - we need to educate everyone. Because education creates behavior. Not only do we need to educate everyone, we need to provide them with the resources to act on/out their education ....i.e. I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ELECTRICAL ENGINEER'S TURN INTO SUBSISTENT FARMERS ...it is only through those means that an infrastructure can start to be built in impoverished communities. And with a growing infrastructure, means growing job market. We need to keep money within the community. We need to keep the smart people within the community. We need to teach children's ethics to avoid corruption. We need schools that create leaders. We need to give power to women.
How do you even start to create change in farming homes?...with no time, no money, and no energy.
Dream
Live a life without addiction.
It's hard to think about what i want in the future. But it's easy to think about making my dreams come true now...and trust in focusing in the now will create some real dream like world in the future.
I did farming. Check.
Going to kenya to work with entrepreneurs, farmers, and students. Ticket - check. Experience - pending.
Going to B9 plastics for a few days in December.
This video really gets me worked up
Education needs to work by pull not push
Imagine an education system that starts from questions not knowledge to be imparted
It's hard to think about what i want in the future. But it's easy to think about making my dreams come true now...and trust in focusing in the now will create some real dream like world in the future.
I did farming. Check.
Going to kenya to work with entrepreneurs, farmers, and students. Ticket - check. Experience - pending.
Going to B9 plastics for a few days in December.
This video really gets me worked up
Education needs to work by pull not push
Imagine an education system that starts from questions not knowledge to be imparted
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Toxie
Crazy how buying a morgage assest could explain so much about the housing economy. Toxic asset were the theme to this week's "This American Life" Podcast. The journalists bought a $1000 asset and named it Toxie..here's a video one of the viewers created that summarizes Toxie's conflict..and eventual death.
Toxie's Dead from Enkhtulga on Vimeo.
Toxie's Dead from Enkhtulga on Vimeo.
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